PooWee

Amy-Thanx for asking…PooWee is doing just great. His ear surgery went fine.

It was truly a 10 minute procedure. But boy did he wake up PISSED OFF!!!! He was so hard to hold, he was just throwing his body every way he could. I could barely hold him. Once I sat down and offered to nurse him he was in seventh heaven then. He nursed for about 10 minutes. Then he realized there were lots of nurses to flirt with in the recovery room. We left shortly after and he slept for  FIVE HOURS once we got home.

Knock on wood so far no ear infection. In the past he’d be on an antibiotic for 10 days and by day 12 or 13 we were back to the doctors. He stopped his ear drops from the surgery on Wednesday, so cross our fingers all stays well.

He’s loving his bike seat I got. The helmet is another story. The neighbors probably think I’m strangling him when I’m trying to get it on him. Once it’s on and we’re biking he’s fine. Hopefully, he’ll learn to except wearing it.

He also has to learn his boundaries outside. My yard does not have a fence, so I have become the fence. He gets quite mad that he can’t run all over the neighborhood. Three times of turning him around and walking him back to our yard ends him in the house. Then he’s REALLY MAD! He’s a stubborn lil thing, strong will to do as he pleases. It’s a whole new world for him out there!

He also had his first dentist appointment Thurs. He managed NOT to bite anyone, but once again he didn’t like what he was going through. All looks good there. No fluoride treatment though, as he wouldn’t cooperate.

Well, it’s way past my bedtime. Gotta go snuggle with PooWee!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL YOU WONDERFUL MOTHERS

(((hugs)))

Should I Be Surprised?

As many of you know I work at my local hospital. Of course this is also the hospital that my family seeks their medical needs from.

PooWee had his tubes placed today. Friday when I called Patient Registration to get his surgery time I requested him to be a PRIVACY patient. Why? Because of my “lovely” co-workers that will be viewing the OR schedule. Some of them will very much enjoy finding a way to make HUGE rumors about his surgery. AND because it’s MY RIGHT!

For my job I need to print the OR schedule and look it over for any scheduled/potential patients coming to my unit. When I was doing this I came across PooWee’s name! Technically, they usually put Wausau, Male for anyone choosing to be private.

Once again the hospital has ticked me off! Not as an employee this time, BUT as a customer.

My concern was addressed to the House Supervisor, who said, “I’m sorry this has happened. Did you talk to K about this?” and walked away! It’s SUNDAY -YOU CAN’T GET ANYTHING DONE ON A SUNDAY!!! NOT EVEN IN A HOSPITAL!

The following is a copy of an email I sent K - patient advocate

 

 

 

 

 

K- I am upset because I had requested my son to be a privacy patient for his procedure scheduled for Mon 5-5 @ 0830. I did this when I had to call PARC for his arrival and procedure time. They had me call Patient Reg. which I did.

Well, today when I go to print the OR schedule his name is on there. I called Patient Reg again and the girl told me that on their end he is. BUT he may not be at scheduling’s end. Scheduling is not here on Sun. and by the time they come in on Mon. we are already here.

Being a Unit Clerk here I was able to know that my wishes for Privacy status were not granted. I am quite upset. There’s a long story behind wanting him Privacy, but point blank it’s because of people that work here and will be viewing the OR schedule.

 

 

 

It’s TOO late. And I hope I won’t be hearing new rumors or discusions about me and my son. As I told a friend, I could say he had a paper cut and a week later it’ll come back to me that someone told someone he had his arm amputated.

 

It’s very aparent that there is a breakdown in Epic or in the way Privacy Pt is set up. Why didn’t Patient Reg notify ALL departments that needed to know?

 

I’ve had to deal with alot of issues based on my son as an employee. And now as a “customer” I have been denied my right to have his procedure private. Yes, in a way you could say I am furious. I did speak to R House Super. about this on Sunday. She stated she couldn’t do anything and said she was sorry. (WHATEVER! - Where’s our customer service here?) She did ask if I wanted to talk to you about it. Personally, seeing she has access to the scheduling in OR, I feel she should have made me happy and went in and changed his name to Wausau, Male like anybody else when they request to be privacy. (But on a personal note, she didn’t follow hospital policy when I went to her during work with an issue either, so why should she when I am a customer.)

GGRRRR K! I’m mad and “I’m sorry” is NOT good enough! My rights were violated.

 

 

 

- -MSICU Unit Clerk -

 

MOTHER OF I have spoken to K once on the phone today. I’m really curious to see how they are going to deal with this matter with me as a customer. I know how they handle matters as an employee and there THEY SUCK!!

 

 

 

 

WOOOHOOO!!!!

IT’S OUT!! IT’S OUT!!

DANG-the thing is BIG!!! I am so relieved.

Headed back to the doctors today AGAIN! PooWee has another ear infection.  I can just tell!! Another HORRIBLE night last night.

He gets his tubes on Monday morning. No nursing after midnight Sunday. Anyone one want to volunteer to watch him Sunday night? He loves his 2am snack.

I think I may have another UTI from the stone, so I’ll supply another sample. Plus, I have to drop off my stone so they can test it. I have this fear the doc will take away my coffee and Pepsi!

I’ve decided to just rent a room at my doctor’s clinic. It would probably be cheaper than all the gas I use anyways.

Well, we’re off to the doctors!

Monday morning

Mondays for me are like most peoples’ Saturdays. I’m done with my work week and so happy to have off. Normally I get the kids off to school and then PooWee and I get breakfast and start the cleaning. Well, I clean he makes a mess.

Andrew and Chad do not have school today, so their both sleeping yet. Elijah was hacking up his lungs as he got ready for school. He’s not feeling so well so he crawled on the couch and is watching a movie. I let PooWee sleep, so he’s still out like a light.

I’ve already put my phone call in to Dr. B to see what she wants me to do about my lil stone friend. Originally the plan was for a CT Scan today if I didn’t pass it. Well, I haven’t passed it, but I’ve had a CT Scan already.

At work on Fri I was having severe pain. My friend, Vic*din, not so friendly anymore, it wasn’t touching the pain. I had a phone call into my doctor to see if I could take more Vic*din than she prescribed. I was talking with Dr. B’s nurse and she asked me to rate my pain. I did and then stated I just wanted to cry. And that was it, I started bawling. I went to the breakroom and laid on the couch. My supervisor came in, she suggested I go to the Emergency Room. I declined and said I would just wait for Dr. B to call back. I figured I’d be going to Radiology for a CT Scan. I really wanted to stay away from the ER bill. Eventually, she insisted I go to ER for pain control. She got a wheelchair and I was off.

Got to ER, they threw an IV in and gave me some M*rphine. Didn’t touch the pain. Then I got a dose of Dil*udid, this atleast made the pain tolerable. Plus, I was able to take a little snooze, well until they took me to CT Scan.

My stone is sitting right by the entrance of my bladder. It’s 5mm and it has lodged itself into a nice cozy spot. I was sent home with some Oxyc*done and told to follow up with a Urologist.

Oh yeah, this whole time my mom has had Elijah at the Walk-In clinic because he hurt his knee at daycare. Turns out he is OK, probably just twisted it.

My mom is with me and my friend, Ann(abanana) when the nurse is discharging me. Thank goodness Ann was there because there was NO WAY I wold have been able to figure out how to run the “drug vending machine”, I could barely stand straight. And Mom, she would have been way overwhelmed with all the instructions.

So…today I have called Dr B’s nurse to find out what I should do. I’m so hapy to say that I am comfortable. I really don’t have anymore pain. I am sick of peeing in a strainer though. This stone is becoming  an annoyance that’s for sure. It definitely is stubborn. If one more person tells me to drink lots of water and/or cranberry juice I may just be forced to shove a sock in their mouth. I’m a walking water/cranberry juice balloon!

PooWee has his ear appointment with Dr. S today. There is NO WAY I will cancel that to accommodate this stone. Plus, I think his ears are bugging him again, he’s got his fingers in them constantly. PooWee’s needs will come before mine.  Oh that was such a “mom statement.”

Elijah will need his baby-in as he is feeling ill. We’ll blame this one on G-ma. She’s had a sore throat and cough for about 2 weeks. Elijah is good at sucking in the “sick-lovins.” He’s got the look and tone of voice down perrrrrfectly. “Moooom, can yoooou get me a new mooooovie, pppllllleeeaaasssee!”

I can’t wait for Andrew and Chad to wake up and find out we are all home to irritate them on their day off. Or that he may need to do some babysitting for me while I go to PooWee’s appointment or an appointment for myself.

It’s going to be a WONDERFUL Monday!

Vic*din is My Friend

I have a new friend. Vic*din! I met this new friend because I have a kidney stone.

They say kidney stone pain is like labor. I disagree. I went through labor three times all without medication. Dealing with this stone is another story. I even cheated and took another Vic*din too early last night.  (SSHHH don’t tell!)

I’ve basically been dealing with this since last Wed. I held off until Sunday, went I finally went to the Walk-In Clinic. They treated me for a UTI. My pain just got worse and I went to see my awesome doctor yesterday. If this lil sucker doesn’t pass by Monday, I’m off to CT scan and then a Urologist. So..PASS BABY PASS!!!

On another note, PooWee boy has a consultation with Dr. S on Monday for possible tubes in his ears. He’s been dealing with ear infections since Febuary. He’s had more that Andrew and Elijah put together. Poor guy!

I’m kinda looking forward to this appointment. I can’t wait for PooWee to get over these ear infections. I’ve heard only good things about tubes. Plus, Dr. S IS NOT bad on the eyes! He’s a cutie!

Here’s to passing this stone by Monday and to PooWee getting relief from his nasty returning ear infections.

The Look

I do not know whether I was then a man dreaming I was a butterfly, or whether I am now a butterfly dreaming I am a man.

H.A. Giles, Chuang Tse

 

I love dreams. Falling asleep and entering a whole new world. Some dreams can feel so real, others I hardly remember.

I use to be more “into” my dreams. I kept a dream journal. I read book after book. I’d like to get back into writing a dream journal. My dreams were often answering my questions. Though at that moment I hadn’t realized it.

One dream put me into the future.

My ex-husband (OH how I love saying EX!) and I had decided to get tattoos. He drew up an ying yang sun, which we place two inches below the bellybutton (center point of the body). I laid on the table and realized I had been in this place before. The blue walls with all the pictures to the beads hanging from a doorway.

As soon as I got home, I read through my dream journal. I found it, I was at this place before. At the time of this dream, my ex was in northern California and I was in Wisconsin dealing with all the legal stuff to move Andrew out of Wisconsin. Our marriage was not good, but we thought a new place would give us a new beginning and perhaps make us live “happily ever-after”.

At the time I hadn’t heard from *** for weeks and I had no way of contacting him. Before going to sleep I had written a question for my dream to answer. “Will I ever see *** again?” My narrative of my dream spoke of a room with blue walls, beads hanging in a doorway, a dentist looking chair, a padded table and may different items scattered throughout. This was my first encounter with the tattoo parlor.

Elijah also kept a dream journal. Though it may be more appropriate to call his a nightmare journal. He suffered horrible nightmares due to the above mentioned EX tell him that he would be killed at night in his sleep. At 4 years old Elijah was terrified of sleep.

When he would have a nightmare he would tell me about it. I wrote it all down just as he explained it. He would then draw a picture of his nightmare. One particular nightmare I recall his father was trying to put “stuff” in Eli’s eyes so he couldn’t see. Elijah hid behind a chair, but his father found him. Eli stated his eyes were burning and all he could see was a red fire. I think of this nightmare often, when I think of Elijah’s visual impairment. I don’t know if they are connected, but I often wonder…

Last night I awoke from my dream. My dream had clarified a puzzling situation for me. This situation has haunted me for over a year. Today, I feel my initial instinct on this moment was correct and I hope to put it all at ease.

It was Christmas Eve 2006, I had gotten PooWee from J and P’s. It was to be my “decision day” on whether I would parent him or give him to J and P to parent. As many of you know, he nursed, so I knew he would be coming home soon.

J and P were at my place picking PooWee up to go to their family gathering that evening. They had brought us all presents Eli was your typical kid tearing into his packages. I began showing them the stocking I was knitting for PooWee along with a sweater. Both incomplete, but were to be his Christmas present.

And there it was the look on J’s face. She gave P this look that until last night I could not figure out. She didn’t comment on the knitted gifts, she just looked at P. It’s a hard look for me to describe, I didn’t understand it. Which is why it has haunted me ever since.

In my dream, this Christmas Eve night was played out exactly as it happened, except I not only saw J’s look, I heard her thoughts.

“She’s not going to see him anymore to give him that!”

I awoke instantly. THAT B*TCH!!! I knew it! I knew she was going to cut me out of my son’s life.

At this moment I was so warmed by PooWee’s presence laying next to me my bed. I rolled over held him in my arms, kissed him on his head and told him I loved him. I felt so much happiness as I fell asleep with my son curled up next to me in my arms.

I’m Honored!

Look what Coco gave me! Thanks Coco!

As I think of who to pass this gift on to I can’t help but return it to Coco. Coco has been such a huge support for me as I have struggled through my emotions this past year. Not only does she help so many of us out in blogland, but she makes a difference out in the “real” world too! (I know! Isn’t blogland, the REAL world?!) I’d like to extend an EXTRA BIG THANK YOU to Coco for her letter to April. I think of this letter often. How hard it must have been for her, but she did it to help someone else, someone she simple heard about.

Which brings me to my next person, Paragraphein. She too, spoke to April about her experience. This just must have been so hard, but she did it, as Coco did…to help another. Her blog continues to amaze me.

I know Coco and Paragraphein have already receive this gift, however they are just so wonderful they deserve it twice.

I can’t forget Sandra, who also dug into her past to help April. Sandra parented at a young age. She told April her story, which also must have been hard. There were hardships for her and she put it right out there for all of us to read. (Sandra has posted in quite some time, I hope all is well in her life.)

I truly thank all three of these ladies, for helping me, with helping April.

HeatherS-my fav amommy! She just rocks. I am amazed with her heart towards her children’s birth/first mom and dad. She holds a dear spot in my heart for being so beautiful. 

And then there are a few nonbloggin people close to my heart I would like to share this with.

To my sister, Gayle. For your understanding and love upon learning about your new nephew, PooWee. You’r words bring me to tears as I type this. Oh and ESPECIALLY for that St*rbucks Gift Cert. For her curage through her breast cancer battle. Gayle also gives back  with her motorcycle club in Arizonia. They do many drives to benefit children and other charities.

 And of course MY MOM! Who never says no to watching the boys or picking them up. Who INSISTS on me bring them over verses taking them elsewhere at times. For all the assistance in getting the boys where they need to be when I’m needed in three places at once. For the handmade knit socks she’s given Eli’s teachers or the daycare teacher. AND ME!!! For the baking she does for school fundraisers. FOR BEING THE BEST DARN MOM/GRANDMOTHER A DAUGHTER/GRANDCHILD COULD ASK FOR!! I love you Mom!!

 

Ella

I GOT TO SEE ELLA TODAY!! She is beautiful!

On my way I stopped and got April a gift certificate for a nursing bra. I got Chad a “Daddy’s Girl” picture frame. And then they both got a magnetic frame for their lockers at school. Chad was excited because it was the first gift he got.

Mom is doing very well. She’s nusing and things are goig pretty good so far. She’ll be going home today. For the remainder of this school year she will be on home based through her high school. Her dad is off of work to help her.

Dad is just shining. I can’t believe how “gitty” and happy he is. He has stayed at the hospital with April every night. He’ll come home for a short time and show off the new pictures he took, tell me what all has happened and then rush off. He’ll say, “I better get back by April, I don’t wnt her to be alone.” Yet, I think he doesn’t want to be away from his daughter for too long.

April and Chad are not “together” anymore. Actually, Chad has a girlfriend, but I wooooonnderrrrr. You can almost see some “new” feelings going on between the two. If anything I think they will be working hard to maintain a close friendship. They definately are showing the love to their daughter.

Grandpa (April’s dad) can’t get the smile off his face. This lil girl will have him wrapped around her lil fingers in no time.

I actually didn’t intend on going to the hospital because of PooWee being so sick. (Which he ended up sick again on Sat. night and Sun. morning. I took him in to the walk in on Sun as soon as they opened. They are running some poo-poo test. So far so good, some take about a week though. Then I had to pick up some new meds.) Anyways…Chad kept “hinting” that he wanted me to come up. I think he just wanted some of his “family” to share his joy. And well, he has no family here except his brother and his brother wouldn’t come. So, I found a sitter (G-ma’s throwing up now too. :(   ) and headed up there this morning to support him. It looks like we are really the only “family” he has right now. POOR GUY!

Alright enough babble…here’s a link to check out their beautiful daughter. (Obviously you’; see there real names Allison and Jordan, but I’ll continue to call them April and Chad on here.)

Ella Marie

SHE’S HERE!!!

Ella was born at 3:41pm today. Weighing 8lb 10oz. 21 inches long. She’s got dark hair and the famous blue eyes. 10 fingers and 10 toes.

Chad DID stay for delivery. Last he mentioned, he didn’t plan on staying in the room. When he was explaining it he couldn’t find the words. I said, “Was it the most amazing thing you’ve ever experienced?” “YEAH!” he replied. “Is she the most beautiful lil thing you’ve ever seen?” “OOOHH YEAH!” I think Chad know knows what love really is.

He got to cut the cord. As he did the doctor pretended Chad cut his finger. I guess it was quite funny.

Chad passed on the first diaper change. He’s regretting that now, as he learnt about the “tar-poop”.  He’s got the next diaper. We know what he’s praying for!

April managed to do natural childbirth. I don’t have the details on when she went in, but I know it was last night some time. I can’t believe she had an 8lb 10 oz lil girl!! She just a tall skinny lil thing. (But, then again ya never would have guessed I had an 8lber either.)

Well, I must get my buttocks off to bed!

OH-POOWEE HAS DONE A 180!!! He was awesome today. Last night Dr.R had me FORCE feed him every 5 min. some Pedialyte for an hour. I used a medicine syringe. I felt so STUPID-why didn’t I think of that! But, the nurse and Dr. J never thought of it either, so maybe I’m not THAT dumb! G-ma had him for the full 12hrs today. I think the two of them had a BLAST. Uncle Larry stopped over and they played and played. It was a beautiful day here, so PooWee even went outside with him for a bit. HE LOVED IT.

I gave PooWee a little lecture last night! I warned him, if he didn’t get better he was going to the hospital. I guess he listened!

PooWee’s Not Doing Well

The Poo man is sick, sick, sick! As in my last post, he began throwing up Tues. night. Well, he hsn’t stopped.

I took him in to the doctors today. Of course Dr. B wasn’t in, so we say Dr. J. He looked him over, saw yet another ear infection, or perhaps it’s the same one we have been treating for the last month with two different antibiotics. He told me to pick up some Lactobac (something like that) from the pharmacy when I picked up his NEW prescription for his ear. I am to try that and if he isn’t any better, he’ll probably have to get admitted to the hospital for IV meds.

Well, the pharmacist refused to sell this Lactosomething to me, because it was adult doses. She had me call the doctor and get clarified if PooWee should take 1/4 of the tablet or what. Dr. J’s nurse got back to me and said this lactosomething does not show dosing for lil guys, so I am to just keep a close eye on PooWee for now. (HHMMM-why did he look this up before? He’s such a dork.)

I’m thinking of calling Dr. R who is on call. PooWee had only had one wet diaper today. He’s doing nohing but nursing every 20 minute! I almost just want him to get the IV meds and get him better. BUT, I don’t want my PooWee in the hospital and getting poked with needles and being all freaked out with the strange place.

He hasn’t thrown up since about 5 this morning, but that’s the way it has been all week. He’s throwing up at night and in the morning. (Maybe he likes fresh sheets every few hours?) BUT, he’s “urpy”, ya know the juicey burps. It’s almost as if it brewing, getting ready to come out.

Right now he’s rocking with Eli and watching Sesame Street Silly Songs. A lil break for me! I have 1hr 30 min before the Walk In closes, figure I’ll give Dr. R a call shortly and see if we should head in there.

Mom’s planning on taking PooWee tomorrow. (If he’s not admitted tonight.) She’s only 5 min. from the hospital, so I can run there if she needs me to.

I’m kinda freaked if he does get admitted. I’m sure there will be comments about what a horrible mother I am, for my babes being so sick. I know I will put him at Privacy status, so if too much is known by my co-workers I wil be protected. Technically, they should know NOTHING of him. If even one person asks how he is, I will know someone said something. Just let someone try looking up his chart in the computer!!!

OK- I think it’s time to call Dr. R. Please send some HEALTHY VIBES for PooWee man. I want my happy wild lil man back!

Oh–April has been having contractions today, I guess! Chad told all his teachers his phone was on because he may have to leave. It’s 7 pm - No baby girl yet!!! She is still at home. Wonder if it’ll be this weekend!